THE OP !!!!

Ok now I know this support group meant to make everyone feel better and so on but listen I cant sugar coat surgery , the good things I can say that it was quick and they say its pretty low risk.

My biggest fear as i left home on the morning of the 10/06/2010 was that i was never gonna see my child again and that he was gonna grow up without a mother , but as ive spoken to many other moms who have done this procedure I think thats the main fear.

I woke up from the surgery screaming help me lol a little melodramatic, the surgeon asked what's the matter and my answer was I don't know just help me.

after sleeping for most of the day and seeing different members of my friends and family faces wave at me and me totally unable to keep my eyes open, visiting hour was finished and everyone went home lol seems like my stomach was waiting for the audience to leave, because I started vomiting now.

Im not talking a little spit up im talking exorcist black vomit flying across the the ward onto my bed ,floor and clothes.

honestly I think that was the worse part of the whole thing and no im on a liquid diet that's easy because im actually not hungry , dose that mean the surgery worked ???????? well who know watch this space

2 weeks post op 257lbs today 231lbs total loss 26 lbs in 2 weeks and 4 days yeyness!!!!

THE MACHINE WITH THE NUMBERS aka the damn scales

OK people yesterday I lost my brain every time I stepped on the scales. Now I am not Albert Einstein but as far as I understand, eating= calories , calories=energy not using all that energy= miss fatty boom boom aka me lol so why the hell was I starving and putting on weight.

I had been eating soups and yoghurt for a total of 5 days and my weight had not shifted even 1 lbs, I think I went on and off the scales 20 times hoping one time it would go down.

After bursting into tears and weighing myself and posting a status on the sleeve fb page and weighing myself and calling my mom and weighing myself I decided to chill as everyone told me not to stress.

I woke up this morning and ran and jumped on the scales and hallelujah praise the lord I had lost 7lbs.

I decided to ban myself from the scales after today as I cant really handle the stress it causes, and stress + hunger don't work well so I asked my hubby to hide them lol, but watch this space by the end of the week ill probably hold our son as ransom and bribe my hubby to give them back to me .